I’ve been a very inconsistent blogger lately. I apologize to those who actually follow me. As I mentioned in my Chinese New Year post, I was sick over Christmas, it took a while to shake off the holidays, and I was doing good for a week once I got back in the groove of posting but…
In truth, I have been undertaking a big new project since the end of 2010; a project that makes it difficult to blog about what I love - food; a project that makes it hard for me to want to do anything but sleep or veg when I have the chance.
As gloomy as that may sound, I am actually VERY happy to announce that I am 14 weeks along with baby #2, or as we fondly and temporarily call it, Peanut. (We called our first son ‘Bean’, so we very well couldn’t have 2 beans. ‘Peanut’ it is!)

“It’s Project Bake: Bun in the Oven Twenty-Eleveeeeeeeeeennn!!”
We made the discovery on New Year’s Eve eve with a very faint line on a dollar store pregnancy test after a couple of months of trying. I had been wanting to try for baby #2 since last spring or longer, but we decided it would be best to enjoy the summer before getting pregnant again. Then we wanted to take some extra time to really make sure we were ready to venture into that realm of new-baby-mania, especially with a toddler this time around of course. Now, we are thrilled! And I’m particularly thrilled in a couple more ways.
Our ultimate plan is to have 2 children, then the factory will be closed. Maybe once Peanut arrives and grows a little, is healthy and flourishing, there could be the possibility of us having a change of heart, but I really don’t see that coming. We had set this goal a long time ago and right now we’re sticking to it. Now that #2 is in the works, it’s almost like this weight has lifted off my shoulders, as we’re now well on our way to accomplishing what we set out to do: build a family.
After having my son, I worked my way back to my pre-pregnancy weight (and 15 lbs less in fact), I felt great, enjoyed my maternity year off, and got a great severance package from work after they closed the account I was working on (which was the icing on my quitting-to-be-a-SAHM cake - of course they didn’t know that I was planning to leave anyway. I milked it and it was win-win!). I appreciate everything that has happened, but I still felt like I was stuck in this baby bubble; that I couldn’t move on to other things until we got this family building thing done. Obviously this is still just the very beginning of a new challenge, but the idea that I can start to make some plans for myself, outside of baby making, gets me pumped.
Now don’t get it twisted: I LOVE being a mom, and a stay-at-home mom at that. We tried our best to plan for me to stay at home at least until the kids started school, and so far it’s worked out wonderfully. I’m living a dream! I am and will be fully dedicated to them the rest of my life. And to me, an important part of being the best mom I can be is to also show my kids the importance of taking care of yourself and showing them that I too am an actual person and not just a mom - it may not be something they’re interested in seeing or accepting until they’re older, but it’s important nonetheless.
I’ve seen some amazing examples of mothers in my life who have raised wonderful human beings, but some of those moms, mostly those from the last generation, have completely forgotten about themselves. It’s inevitable that your life revolves around your kids once they’re here, and you wouldn’t want it any other way out of your love for them, but life is also about balance. Long before we decided to have kids, I swore to myself that I wouldn’t forget about taking care of me, because I’ve seen the negative that can come out of it, not just for the mother but also for the children. I specifically remember our instructor in prenatal class suggesting that we do at least one thing for ourselves everyday to feel “normal” once the baby arrives, and I took it to heart (especially since she already had 3 little boys of her own and was pregnant while teaching our class - she definitely knew a thing or two). So as shallow and vain as it sounds, I would always take the time to shower, get dressed, do my hair, put on some mascara, even if I didn’t leave the house, just to give myself that extra boost to get through the long days and nights with a newborn baby. And even to this day, I refuse to leave the house in sweatpants unless it’s to actually workout. That’s my “normal”.
So, I’m excited to get back to bootcamp and get my butt into shape without feeling like I have to start over again after another baby. I’m excited at the idea that I can take some upgrading courses to prep myself for eventually going back to work (and it will probably take me until the time they’re both in school to get a course done on my own time anyway). I’m excited at the prospect of being able to reach some of my other goals in life, of reaching some potentials. I’m just excited to have somewhat of a blank canvas that I can now paint together with my hubby and 2 babies by my side. And overall, I’m excited to teach my babies values that are best taught by doing; by being the best mother, wife, daughter, sister, and person that I can be.
Ok, so this post is as hopeful and happy and cheesy as it gets, but I feel very blessed to be able to feel it and write it.
Since the foodie in me is being sketchy, along with my appetite and cravings, I don’t know what the future of this blog will hold, but hopefully people will stick around to read it because Project Bake should be a good one.
Until next time, I will freely enjoy my poutine and Sour Patch Kids… a pregnant foodie’s dream.